Spun Around, Now Spin a Web

Good Mother, Good Teacher

Yesterday I felt like I’d been spun round and round with this thing regarding him.  We could see the grief. See how thoughts of him affected my nervous system. This love I have for him. Feeling it so deeply. With every offense, I’ll treatment all the things my children and I experienced from him - still feeling this intense love and longing…

Then SNAP! 🫰 

I heard, IS THIS A LOOP, IS THIS PROCESS EVEN REAL , Is this a performance?  I felt myself giving myself permission to hold space in my mind for the energy of love and not these memories. 

Had I received the wisdom? Womb have I embodied and embraced what you wanted me to from this experience?

I hear you say: 

SEE IT ALL AS BEAUTIFUL 

SEE IT ALL WITH DELIGHT 

SEE IT AS SOFT PETALS

WARM AND LIGHT

SEE IT IN THE DARK

DISSOLVE INTO NOTHINGNESS AT ALL

SEE IT AS STAR DUST

FOR YOU TO CREATE EVERYTHING AND NOTHING

I AM DIVINE INTELLIGENCE 

STRANGE AND UNCOMMON BARBARA

YOU FIND ME WHEN YOU CLING

AND YOU FIND ME WHEN YOU RELAX

AND OH MY DEAR, DO RELAX

AS A SPIN THIS WEB AS CHARLOTTE

WITH A SINGLE WORD FOR YOU

TO CATCH YOU 

You can’t wrong me

You can’t do me wrong

I am neutrality

I am pure love

When you honor you

You catch you

Wake up my dear 

And see the word I’ve spun for you

In the depths of you womb. 

I saw 👀 the word. 

And it was - four letters ___________