When is healing?
Almost one year ago my family became homeless. On my journey through phases of homelessness I recognized the relationship between physical homelessness and emotional homelessness. I learned the status or state of being I had encountered outwardly was first felt emotionally.
Without digging too much into my past, my home was not a physical place. Some may have heard the saying, "Home is where the heart is." Well, my home was with my children and the person I had chosen to remain married to for life. When the marriage was ending, it was one of the hardest seasons for my children and I, second to when my baby had cancer.
All the emotions; the wishing, the hoping, the praying, the believing....well, I could not understand why God had allowed divorce. Why was divorce the better plan?
I would hear this verse come to my heart. Although I did not understand the whole picture. This verse gave me inner peace and contentment. I wrote it on the tablet of my heart when I became discouraged.
I felt okay to mourn because Isaiah 61:3 says "and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor."
Without digging too much into my past, my home was not a physical place. Some may have heard the saying, "Home is where the heart is." Well, my home was with my children and the person I had chosen to remain married to for life. When the marriage was ending, it was one of the hardest seasons for my children and I, second to when my baby had cancer.
All the emotions; the wishing, the hoping, the praying, the believing....well, I could not understand why God had allowed divorce. Why was divorce the better plan?
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
I would hear this verse come to my heart. Although I did not understand the whole picture. This verse gave me inner peace and contentment. I wrote it on the tablet of my heart when I became discouraged.
I felt okay to mourn because Isaiah 61:3 says "and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor."
Everyday I would read these verses, meditate on them, pray. Now I am determine more than ever to overcome the emotional and physical homelessness of the last year. I already feel the difference. I feel complete in my home with my children. I feel content and at peace.
I am confident a place has been prepared for my family. I will keep building on the successes we have had through God.
When is healing? Now is healing. Now we are moving forward. I am actively working to change our paradigm. The best part, everyone reading this blog gets to see us moving out of homelessness into a home.
~Angela
(Angel Momma)
John 14:1-3 says,
"Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also."
I am confident a place has been prepared for my family. I will keep building on the successes we have had through God.
When is healing? Now is healing. Now we are moving forward. I am actively working to change our paradigm. The best part, everyone reading this blog gets to see us moving out of homelessness into a home.
~Angela
(Angel Momma)
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