Changing Lanes

On this open road the excitement flooding my being is more than I can contain.  Here I am connected to God in a much more tangible way.  The winds rock my van between two lanes, yet I feel such peace as the suns brilliant light warms me as if God is hugging me.



I look upon the mountains reminded of the great power God - who is all - has given to His creation.  I am reminded of scripture, "if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them."  I feel such reverence. Knowing any power given to us comes from the Source of our being.

Embarking on this journey I left the perception of safety to chase a dream, a longing for something greater than I had seen in my life. Greater than the stories others told of me.  I did not know I would be brought to this same road several times.  The joy I feel on this road however is undeniable.  I know I am on the path, a path which has taught me many lessons.  One - to see me as God sees me. 

Out of telephone range, the trust and faith required humbles me.  Reminding me life is bigger, God is bigger than the box I had Him in.  Seeing the specks I once called problems in a world larger than that which I could phanthom.  Not a physical world but the spiritual universe where I feel myself becoming more connected to God and less to religion. 


I feel my purpose burning within me yet I can't say it's name. All I know is I have to show up.  I have taken my children out of the safety of family who love us and put us in the hands of God- my Mother who gave me life, my Father who gave me character. 

I am brought to tears. 

 
I hear the wind as it pushes against my windows, what beautiful music.  God takes me a little deeper within me, although the wind keeps rocking my van I know I am safe.  I allow Her to show me the deeper places in me.  The places of my fears.  Her love penetrates me as I see where I allowed my fears to cause me to see a world of problems. It was apparent I was not living the fullness of my life. For to everything, we have the solutions and the ability to create the solution within us. I embraced Her, choosing to change, evolve, expand...I chose life.  

Then it was time, time to change lanes.  Time, as I was filled with love, to embrace all God had given me.

Changing lanes I picked up speed. I felt a rush within me, as if life was breathed into me again.  All this time I thought I had to search for my purpose yet all the while it was here with me.  All the time I had known it - but fear.  (Oh fear...)

In this moment I feel confident, knowing each day I arise I live my purpose. Each day I chose to not seek "Just Over Broke" (a job), but pursue nurturing the life which came through me, I was living my greatness. 

Here with my Father and Mother I feel content with who I am.  My story. And I begin to love, Love, life. Nothing was more fulfilling than changing lanes to see all I needed to do was keep moving forward because everything I was searching for I already had. 

~AngelSmiles