Day 26 - July 10, 2009

Day 26: Love is responsible

When you judge another, you condemn yourself, since you, the judge, do the same things.

—Romans 2:1 HCSB

TODAY’S DARE

Take time to pray through your areas of wrongdoing. Ask for God’s forgiveness, then humble yourself enough to admit them to your spouse. Do it sincerely and truthfully. Ask your spouse for forgiveness as well. No matter how they respond, make sure you cover your responsibility in love. Even if they respond with criticism, accept it by receiving it as counsel.

This dare was the first I thought I was not going to do. I have apologized for several things, I was trying to think of something new.

We had an argument, much to my dissatisfaction with myself. I'd hoped to be in more control of my emotions. No, it did not get physical, I just hoped my bottle had stayed sealed when it came to my disappointments and hurts. (My disappointments aren't because of the dare and his responses.)

Well, I ended up apologizing for, not being supportive of his writing and something I can't remember because of my "prego brain." I told him I could tell I still have a lot to work on and asked him to forgive me. He's response was, "You are just teaching me stuff." I am sure the stuff he is referring to is negative.

I chose this apology because tonight Steve asked to use the computer to write (it's the only computer we have left). He didn't want me in the room (the computer is in our bedroom). This was fine with me. The kids told me something their dad said and I went to ask him about it. When I saw he was on another site. I'd asked if, "when you said you wanted to write , did you mean on _____ (site)." He told me he was writing. From here the argument began.

I still have growth to do. This night I learned, each time I fall God humbles me. He shows me I need Him. And it's okay if I mess up, I'm human. I just have to take the lessons I have learned, the things I see in me, ask for forgiveness and for healing.