Day 9 - June 23, 2009

Day 9: Love makes good impressions

Greet one another with a kiss of love.

—1 Peter 5:14

TODAY’S DARE

Think of a specific way you’d like to greet your spouse today. Do it with a smile and with enthusiasm. Then determine to change your greeting to reflect your love for them.

This was another dare which challenged me. Steve had his class until 10:30pm last evening. I stayed up waiting for him the whole time wondering how I would pull off a genuine smile. One which would express genuine happiness.

The dynamic here is basically, my husband sleeping on the floor in our living room. (I moved a mattress in there for him the other day. I hate him sleeping on the floor when he has to go to work all day.) We don't talk about much. We smile at each other sometimes. Steve says I've been having weird expressions on my face. I'm sure it has to do with all the things going on in my head and not knowing how to be around him (not wanting to be in his face, but not wanting to ignore him and wanting to be loving).

We still watch a show together (HBO's ROME). When he looks stressed I rub his head (Which is daily). We joke occasionally. Though it lingers in our home he is planning to leave. So much so last night Gabe prayed, " God please let dad come home tomorrow." When Steve doesn't come home right after work or leaves, they ask me if he is coming back...

Last evening, I sat on our couch praying and singing to God (What God has for me it is for me, I know without a doubt, He will bring me out, what God has for me it is for me). Asking Him to let His spirit guide me when Steve walked through the door. My mind would drift here and there, I just kept praying. I felt led to get one of the letters Steve wrote me when we were dating. I choose a random letter and it happened to be one which he wrote about my smile. I read it and re read it. I thought of happy times with Steve. I grabbed one of Steve shirts with his scent (I am a smells person hahahahahaha). I asked God to fill me with Joy.



When Steve came home I greeted him at the door, I can't even remember what I said. I tried to hug him (blocked by his lunch box)and kiss his cheek. He gave me his award for the class he took. I told him how proud I was of him and was very excited about the award, placing it with his others.

I've known how important his greeting is, I just don't do it all the time. Addie greets him every time he comes home, she runs to the door and yells "Daddy! Daddy! Daddies home!" He's told me how much it means to him when she does that. I have been conflicted lately with if I should. The book pointed out, even if we aren't on the best terms it is still very important. I will add this to my everyday. I do need to live up to being Lady Smiles : ).